Hello my beautiful, amazing babes.
Its been so long since I’ve had the chance to sit down and write. It feels so good to be able to have the time to lay here on the hammock at my home and share with you whats been going on and some thing that have been on my mind.
I recently had the opportunity to attend Beautycon 2017. It was such an eye opening experience as you would imagine since I don’t consider myself a “beauty expert or guru”, getting an invitation to attend with people like Nicole guerriero and Patrick Starrr was pretty intimidating. Never the less, with my best contour forward, I was so excited to be able to be a part of the festivities but I think getting a chance to meet all of you guys was the best part.
While I was there, it made me so happy to see how welcoming the beauty community is. Its so refreshing to see all different types of people coming together and really embody the essence of why I personally think make up is so amazing; which is to highlight the beauty thats you already possess.
On my mind:
If you know me, like really actually know me.. the one thing that you could agree with is that I’m an extremely giving person. Giving in the sense of my time, my heart, I go above and beyond for the people I care about and even some of those whom I barely know. I’ve always been the one that my friends call to vent all their problems to, to confide in, or to ask for advice from. I have never been the type of person to lay out my true emotions, fears, or struggles to anyone because I fear that it might be a burden to them. Funny right? Coming from the person who is always there for everyone else? Well the people closes to me seem to think so too.
Honestly, I think it all kind of came from being an only child. I didn’t have a sibling to run to every time something happened and I “just needed to talk”. I had, me, myself, and I so I always managed to find a way to be ‘okay’, smile and carry on…But what if one day being just ‘okay’ wasn’t enough anymore…
I’ve received so many snapchats and DMs from you guys asking why I don’t post as often.. if Im okay and honestly for so long I didn’t know how to reply because I didn’t know the answer; all I knew was how happy it made me to be able to know that I have people who care to see my extremely weird self on their cellphones everyday. I honestly don’t know how I got so lucky to have fans who never ask for anything but you guys always have my back. (Thank you) I think that for me, I made the unconscious decision to step back and really take time for myself recently. To be a bit selfish with my time and the energy I invest into people and to make sure that above all..I am happy.
Which leads me to what I wanted to talk about today. Due to some life events that have happened recently, I felt the profound need, more than ever, to express this one simple thought to you guys. “Don’t you ever dare let ANYONE let you feel guilt for taking time for yourself and being a bit selfish.” In order to be the best version of you, you must first find that from inside of you. As much as you want to be able to help someone or be there for them, you must be there for yourself first. I want to encourage all of you guys to really take the time to invest a little self love back into your routine. Do what makes YOU happy. Be around the people who care about your wants and needs.
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Theres so much happening right now, with filming FILTER, some AMAZING travel plans that I’m bursting to tell you guys about, to more music, and performances and ahhhh life! (LOL) Im excited to have you guys in the front seat with me to share this journey.
Here are some recaps of whats been happening the last few months.
As always, ily. xx
